Life... its such an interesting thing...

Right when you think you have a grasp on it, it slips right from your hands. or in this case gets yanked.

I seem to be numb. I can't seem to feel what I'm supposed to feel. I guess thats a good thing right? or is it going to make it worse on me later?

Am I dealing really well or just not dealing at all? I think I'm just good at bottling it up. I mean initially I was very effected but then it just seemed to fade into a distance. my anger and hurt just seemed to dissipate. But then again I think maybe I just am shoving it down and refusing to feel the pain.

I feel like I'm drowning. I'm just letting the water fill my lungs and not fighting anymore.

I kind of hope to just wake up from this nightmare.