Anyone who knows me knows that I thrive on change. I get bored easily and like to have new, different things in my life. For instance, I change my hair color constantly, I have 12 piercings, I change jobs way too often, I move a lot, and I like to try new things.

There are some things that I wish would stay the same though. I wish no one would get older and that my grandparents would not leave this earth. I wish the butterflies you feel in the first few months of love never dissipated. I wish I could have all my friends near me (yes I know it was usually me that moved but why couldn't you come with me?) I wish some relationships would stay the same and not change and grow distant.

God has been working on me lately about being content where I am (who am I kidding? He's been working on me in this area for years). He has blessed me with a job that I adore and that is constantly challenging me. I do not get bored and I'm always learning. He kept me away from my family long enough to truly appreciate being with them now.

I want to learn to live in the now and not in the someday. My mom often says that "people parish without a vision". This is very true. If you don't have a hope for a future then you do not have a reason to go forward. But I also want to have a vision for now. I spent a lot of my teenage years dreaming of the day I would meet my man and get married. Now that I am there, I dream of the day that I will have kids. But that day will come soon enough and I don't want to spend today wishing it away.

When you lose someone you love it makes you think about the precious time you wasted not spending time with them. I know I will get to see my grandparents again in heaven but I sure wish I would have had more time with them here.

I want to appreciate the here and now. I don't want to look back and regret not having done something. I want to look back and be proud of who I was and what I did.

I enjoy change... now its time to make a change.... in me.